This is more of a warning than a post.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m not picking a niche.
I\u2019m not sticking to one topic.I don\u2019t know how the fuck to do that – I\u2019m a Swiss army knife too – a little bit of useful for everywhere but not an expert in anything other than being maybe a bit of a bitch or walking away. Good news for me – most people don\u2019t see the full picture these days and it\u2019s been part of my life. I missed 20% of it until a few years ago and that 20% is a total bitch\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s the thing that makes me \u201ccrazy\u201d something to always laugh about but it\u2019s also awful. Ignorance is bliss, people kind of suck and I was naive to believe the best in most. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m not curating an aesthetic. Everyone gets old and wrinkly. I dropped out of college at 20 because I was making more than teachers – let\u2019s look at that process a bit maybe? So I\u2019m not a written educator. The older you get the more you realize most people suck – my biggest benefit is I understand boundaries to respect you while simultaneously understanding atonomy to know you make your choices and I make mine, and Im kind of smart so I realize only2 people know the truth of a relationship or interaction, but I\u2019m also very opinionated. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I like to learn things the hard way. By doing it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m just going to talk about whatever is sitting in my brain that day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And my brain?
It doesn\u2019t stay in one lane.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m almost 40, I\u2019ve lived a lot of lives, and I think about a lot of different things. I don\u2019t want to force myself into pretending I only care about one category just because that\u2019s what \u201cblogging\u201d looks like now. It\u2019s stupid. It\u2019s fake. And I don\u2019t have the energy to perform for strangers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want a place where I can actually think out loud.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So that\u2019s what this is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What I mean by \u201ceverywhere\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I\u2019m thinking about identity and why humans have no idea who they are outside their jobs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I\u2019m thinking about skin care and why moisturizer feels like doing the bare minimum for my face\u2019s survival.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I\u2019m thinking about loneliness, or why making friends at this age feels like interviewing for an unpaid internship.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I want to talk about Vegas, which is its own ecosystem of chaos and quiet weirdness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I\u2019m thinking about my past \u2014 addiction, rehab, moving 30+ times, divorces, all the plot twists.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some days I\u2019m thinking about work, hiring, firing, corporate nonsense, and how people destroy their own careers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n And some days\u2026 nothing. Just brain static.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It\u2019s all connected in its own way, but I\u2019m not pretending it\u2019s going to be neatly organized. My mind has never worked like that. I jump topics because that\u2019s how life feels \u2014 layered, messy, and happening all at once.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If you\u2019re here, that\u2019s what you\u2019re getting<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Not tidy lessons. I want to write about real things people don\u2019t talk about \u2014 the inner thoughts, the contradictions, the questions we all have but keep in our heads because we don\u2019t want to seem dramatic or weird or too much.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I spend a lot of time wondering how people actually think. I want to understand people, and I want to understand myself at the same time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So I\u2019m going to be everywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n If that sounds messy, good.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Life is messy. You don\u2019t have to follow every post. Pick what resonates and skip what doesn\u2019t. I\u2019m treating this like a running log of the things I\u2019m trying to figure out before I hit 40 and whatever comes after.<\/p>\n\n\n\n That\u2019s the whole point. This is more of a warning than a post. I\u2019m not picking a niche.I\u2019m not sticking to one topic.I don\u2019t know how the fuck to do that – I\u2019m a Swiss army knife too – a little bit of useful for everywhere but not an expert in anything other than being maybe a bit of…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-57","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"\n
Not motivational speeches.
Not \u201chere\u2019s my expertise in one narrow category.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Not what they do \u2014 how they tick.<\/em>
How people make decisions.
What shapes them.
Why they see the world the way they do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
People are messy.
You\u2019re messy.
I\u2019m messy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There is no point.
I just want a place to think.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"